HOME tomorrow!

I didn't get my fantasy of Lauren coming home today. They wanted to watch her one more night. So, tomorrow it is! I had a mom say to me today "well at ;east you got a good break". Huh? It's horrible when she goes into the PICU. I feel constant guilt if she's ever alone there. Plus, Lauren's not a burden to me. I love having her here. I love seeing her face light up. I love having her bounce repeatedly on my lap wanting me to tip her upside down. I don't feel complete when she's not home. the hospital pokes at my PTSD. Home is where she belongs.